Whoa....

This morning I woke up and was once again feeling down about being selfish...serving only myself instead of the Lord. I prayed that God would change me...or do something in my life over this break. Another struggle that has come up is money...knowning that God will provide for me and my family is a no brainer...however in the lasty few days my dad bought my christmas present(a cajon), paid my bed deposit, and received news that as part of my tuition payment plan...we have to have 600 dollars due in two weeks that we just don't have. So...this morning, as I'm laying down, I hear my mom find a bill that was due yesterday...dangit. She was fine with it and called it in...but I felt like all this money is due and I wanted the Lord to provide something.

So... as I'm laying, praying that the Lord would change me...while at the same time providing money for my current situation. Suddenly...my phone rings. "hmmmm...who is this?" I asked myself. The screen on the phone read Daryl. "Hello is this Douglas?" He asked. "Yes it is." I replied. "Are you still interested in getting a job down here for the last couple of weeks before school?" This caught me totally off guard because I called at least 3 to four weeks ago, and didn't expect to have him call me back. In that moment I felt like God was sending me a message. "I love you no matter how much you rebel. I you to know that I will always provide for you NO MATTER WHAT." That was a big comfort. Although I know I need to change from being so selfish...especially towards the Lord, yet He still loves me the same when I am.

I'm so blessed to have amazing earthly father, and an even more amazing heavenly Father.

comMENTOS THE dougie FRESH MAKER

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Visitors

Aaron came over to spend the night on saturday because Tom was coming to speak at our church on sunday. I think he was probably overwhelmed with food because my mom kept trying to stuff him with anything she could find. She fixed up the ribs and gumbo that was in the fridge.(mmmmmm おいしい...) Then my family kept trying to give us ice cream and cake after the fat meal we had. The next morning we had a good time at church. Tom gave an awesome message and it made me wish I was going back out to Okinawa just to hear him teach. Afterward they came over and looked at baby pictures and talked and all that junk. We had alot of fun



...Life at home has been good. There have definitely been ups and downs already...but I think that God is bringing me through His refining fire in this time. I'm just so greatful for the grace that God gives...because no matter how many times I leave Him...He's always ready to take me back...comforting me with His soft voice. I love having a relationship with the Creator of the universe.